Awesome Providence!! (And I’m not talking about the TV show…)

February 19, 2009 pwnickydesu

It’s funny how our whole lives are comsumed with needs (and wants), and it’s funny, too, how so many people will sing songs about money and how awful it is, yet assert that it is, in fact, necessary for life, as we all well know.

I came home last night and nearly cried out of thankfulness. My room mate, Kat, had left a 10,000 yen bill on my desk as a parting gift (she’d left for Canada that day, to study at university or college). I was so overwhelmed, both by her generosity and by the heart behind her giving spirit, at the centre of which is Jesus. Given that He was the “root cause”, so to speak, of that occurence, I was inevitably also grateful to God, for providing for me in a time of need.

Now, I really shouldn’t be too much in need, given that, according to past blog entries, I work a full time job, right? Wrong. I worked a full-time job.

What now???

Let me go back the beginning point of all of this, to the seed of thought that instigated a change:

There’s a famous story in the Bible. Christians and non-Christians alike will probably be familiar with the story of how Jesus walked on water. A slightly lesser-known story, perhaps, is that of Peter (one of Jesus’ dsiciples) walking on the water. Jesus was the Son of God, so it was probably a ‘walk in the park’ for Him to set foot on the precarious waves, strolling out to His boat. He had total and utter faith in His Father and God.

But Peter, while a magnificent man, was a flawed human, just like us, and was renowned for his perpetual doubt. He believed in the words of Jesus when his Master told him to step out of the boat (bear in mind that this boat was currently out in the the middle of a lake!!) and come to Him. He stepped out onto the waves. Now, how awesome is that??

But…when Peter doubted, he began to sink, at which point Jesus told him (as He time and time again told the masses of people that listened to him speak during His time on earth) to HAVE FAITH!!

God gave me a theme phrase for this year: RELY ON ME! (“Me” being God). I was busy in the last half of last year, I was quite stressed at times and was learning gradually to lean on God and to turn to Him for strength. But with the hours I was spending at my job along with the stuff that I was doing for various teams in Church, I was still incredibly busy. Something had to give. And it wasn’t going to be Church.

I decided to take a leaf out of Peter’s book.

I quit my job.

Not the most logical thing to do in the midst of a world economic crisis, at least not from a pragmatic, seeing-is-believing point of view. The good thing is, I don’t subscirbe to that viewpoint. Furthermore, at this stage, God had already opened a door for me to work, part-time, at Waves English School, which was started by Jesus Lifehouse.

I’ve just started and I LOVE it!!!

Though the job is not enough money to live off, I know that God will provide for me. I am currently looking for a job, and am not at all worried. Rather, I find myself effortlessly sliding into a typically Kiwi state of mind: “She’ll be right.”

Because I know it will…He promised me it would be. And a girl always trusts the promises of her Daddy.